no second chance

once in a lifetime

MEANS

there's no second chance

Getting Better

Dear frenz.. no worries abt me k?? i'm feeling better already.. mebbe bcuz i have learnt to let go.. and i've found a new direction... will be working hard in and out of sch.. which will keep me busy most of the time!! i've already reached the lowest point in my life and i wont be able to go down any further.. the only way out is up!! i'll be fine.. i promise!!

thanks to all my dear frenz who have been asking after me.. juz give me a little more time to walk out of the shadows and put it totally behind me..

love all of ya lots!!

Tired Out

I'm tired out from everything.. really really tired.. juz want to get away from everything..

Finally let it all out last night.. but still dun feel much better.. guess an accumulation of stuff can really do serious damage..

Juz wanna let everything go and say sayonara..

Kite and Steel

The string of a kite, when held too tightly will snap, and the kite will be lost forever..

Even the strongest steel, when battered continuously for a long period of time, will show signs of weakness and may crumble..

Juz a thought

Things that do not break me will only make me stronger..

This is what i have come to realise and although these things have made me feel really down and out.. i have become mentally stronger and more ready than ever to face whatever is thrown at me..

Sometimes i have to go through a really rough patch to appreciate the things around me.. and to be able to see clearly what is there in reality..

And even though reality is far from ideal.. i'm definitely not going to give up on my ideals that motivate me.. or i would have succumbed to pressure and lose everything that is me..

Last Thing On My Mind - Ronan Keating and Leann Rimes

Four o’clock in the morning
My mind’s filled with a thousand thoughts of you
How you left me without a warning
But looking back I’m sure you tried to talk it through

Now I see it so clearly
We have been together but living separate lives

So, I wanna tell you I’m sorry
Baby, I can’t find the words
But, if I could
Then you know I would, yeah

No, I won’t let go
No why we can be
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeah
Girl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind

You carried me like a river
How far we have come still surprises me

And now I look in the mirror (look in the mirror)
Staring back is a man I used to be with you
How I longed for you

No, I won’t let go
No why we can be
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeah
Girl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind

Girl I’m sorry I was wrong
Could have been there, should have been so strong
So, I’m sorry
Whoa~~~

No, I won’t let go
No why we can be
I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeah
Girl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind (on my mind)

I won't watch my life crashing down on me
As I had it all right there before my eyes, yeah
Girl I’m sorry now you were the last thing on my mind
On my mind
On my mind

some thoughts

i no longer want to suppress what i feel.. i shall juz be ME.. i wanna be an open book, where all my likes and dislikes, happiness and unhappiness, anger and frustration, worries and concerns, shall all be plainly seen from my face and actions.. why should i hide my feelings any longer?? will it do me any good??

life is full of ups and downs, and i know that i have to take things in my stride.. but i believe i'm still entitled to feeling down.. and not juz hide everything and pretend tt i'm fine and everything will be ok.. cuz sometimes.. time may not juz make everything ok.. sometimes.. we need to feel really down and out before being able to move on.. yeah

and sometimes i make really bad decisions but i have to live with it..